Lonely Girl In Massachusetts

[belinda508]

I think the subject says it all. I've been single since 2003 and I've been just about all over the internet trying to find the guy for me. I finally found this site- maybe this time I'll find someone. I've been trying to stay clean for a number of years now, and I can honestly say that the main thing that keeps me running back to my drug of choice (heroin), is the fact that I'm 38 years old and I feel like my life is empty and pointless without a husband and children. I live in Webster, MA and there's not alot of NA meetings around here. There's supposed to be 2 meetings a week, but your LUCKY if there's one. I stood around last Tuesday night for almost an hour waiting for someone to show up at the meeting hall, and nobody showed up. Hopefully tonight someone will show.... There's alot of AA meetings around here, but I've never felt comfortable there. There's also ALOT of NA meetings in Worcester, MA wich is about 15 miles from me, but I don't drive and I don't know anyone who'll give me a ride. So here I sit, in my living room typing on my computer, reaching out the only way I can. If anyone has any advice, I'd be happy to hear it!